Sometimes I hate myself
Sometimes I hate myself because other people don’t like me not because I don’t like me…does that make sense. I think I’m pretty cool on my own scale but apparently myself and others operate on a totally different scale. SO they dislike me, which then makes me think, hey I must suck in some way that I don’t know. And that makes me in turn hate myself, sometimes, like...
There are days when I wonder why was I born to look this way? If only I could do something about it.
I have this best friend who had been jealous of my looks since we’ve been young and I have told my friend my looks sere nothing. What do they get me but short relationships. Now my friend has abilities to be jealous of. That person is amazingly intelligent and can easily has always easily been able to achieve goals set forth. I only wish my friend could see the awesomeness in the mirror....
I try not to believe in Fate because if its true then I’m destined for the worst. Somehow the Fates if they exist have decided I’m to be a loser the bottom of the bunch. Because not matter how hard I try I fail horribly! What else can it be but fate. Maybe its time to recognize their existence and to stop fighting.
.....I should really go study right now---I'll...
I’m just trying to graduate, go to Japan, enjoy life but crap keeps happening. I just wanted to get seen by the doctor make sure I didn’t break anything then I find out my insurance has put me on hold, WTF! I don’t know why they don’t know why and so I’m being billed for my medical expenses until further notice:-[ I really hate my life sometimes. Gosh just let this...
Rant & Rave "He only wants SEX!"
Why does sex run the minds of sooo many people? Should it be sex that controls our interactions with those we are attracted to? So much so much I want to be with a guy of my own kind, from my people, but they are so hard to come by. Finally I find one who seems really cool but in the end he is motivated by sex. :-[ He wants to get close to me physically I want to get close emotionally so what...
No man has ever wanted to make me a promise and the ones who have have broken them. I think promises take work to keep but a person of strong character should be able to do that. I hate to break promises so yes I declare few but I tend to accomplish many. For the men I’ve known they fear promises because with them come a sense of responsibility or commitment and they’re never sure if...
hollynhaunt: Oh, hey. I see the Muscogee site has changed their layout and it is wonderful and much more simple than before. I also see they have added some PDF language books.
Desire by Joy Harjo
ourheartsareloud: Say I chew desire and water is an explosion of sure wings in my mouth. Say it tastes of you. Say I could drown because you left for the time it takes a blackbird to understand a pine tree. Say we enter the pine woods at dawn. We never slept and the only opium we smoked was what became of our mingled breath. Say the stars have never learned to say good-bye. (One is a...
Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts.– Albert Einstein
Television: In the criminal justice system--
Me: SEXUALLY-BASED DEFENSES ARE CONSIDERED ESPECIALLY HEINOUS. IN NEW YORK CITY, THE DEDICATED DETECTIVES WHO INVESTIGATE THESE VICIOUS FELONIES ARE MEMBERS OF AN ELITE SQUAD KNOWN AS THE SPECIAL VICTIMS UNIT. THESE ARE THEIR STORIES. DUN DUN
Why sleep when there are so many things to do in the world? I think I’ll read another poem.
I’m trying to become a person who slowly enjoys my hard candies; not someone who’s quick to chew. Inspired by My Sweet Seoul(Korean drama)
Be brave. Take risks. Nothing can substitute experience.– Paulo Coelho (via visualnoises)
saying what you need
thetaoofdana: it was very humbling when I realized that no one could read my mind. and when I recognized that I couldn’t read other people’s minds either. if you don’t tell people what you need or want, its not often that they will guess. there is nothing wrong with saying what you need or want. you might not always get it, but you will definitely be glad that you learned to communicate...
what if grass suddenly started screaming when we walked on it
How People find out about my personal life I have...
But I really wish they would care more about their lives and less about mine. Gossip is not cool.
SIGNS FROM GOD COME IN THE MOST AWESOME WAYS LIKE...
Lately my heart, soul, chest, eyes have been heavy with the pain life and the world brings. But tonight, the night I knew I needed to let go of everything, Tim Mcllarth says “Everyone right now I need you to just let go of whatever has been on your chest and holding you down” And I’m thinking YES!!! And behind him on the stage is this awesome screen spelling RISE. And he...
The Rise Against concert was amazing tonight! So glad they did an encore. I would have been soo sad if I went home without hearing Savior but luckily it was the last song they played for the night. And yes I went APE SHIT! Next time I’m going to have to get floor seats because I want to just jump all over the place. “I DON’T HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON’T HATE YOU...
Baffles me why, why not me?
Have you ever had the thought why me? Well most people do. But have you had the thought why NOT me? Why am I NOT the one chosen? Why is it that everyone else who comes along gets a chance but me, I’m looked over, not good enough, defective, just NOT right. Now this is retroactive thinking currently because I’m happy with the way things are in my life but as things have played out...
That awkward moment when you wave at someone but...
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gravemakers-and-gunslingers asked: ty for answering my question. :)
Rule for the NYE
NO MORE going out to party with drunken homies it just makes me pissed off by the end of the night & they never get why. Now I’m hungry with no fries, hurt feet, and super cold…but the party was super awesome though ^_^ But still drunk friends can’t ride no more point blank PERIOD.
So my posts as of late have not been useful; that’s a problem. SO let’s think of an interesting topic. Men’s Fashion So men’s fashion is just as important as women’s fashion if you ask me. The male peacock adorns himself in beautiful feathers to attract the right female peacock and men must do that with women. Okay maybe its not that much connected with Biology but...
I hate alcohol, BF just texts me telling me he’s drinking with some girl who turned 21 yesterday…I think UGH. Trying not to be “that girlfriend” but gosh I just really don’t like the idea of him drinking, let alone with some random chick. But you know what, if he wanted to drink with me I’d probably be cool with that. Although I wouldn’t kiss him...
japanesesentences: 力があっても過去は変わらない。 ちからがあってもかこはかわらない。 chikara ga attemo kako wa kawaranai. Even if I have power, the past won’t change.